My car

My car is trouble!!!

So the "maintenance required" light started flashing. Usually that's ok and I don't really have to worry about that. The next couple of days the "check engine" light comes on and I'm like, oh dang. And then my car started over heating and smelling horribly like gas. When it was parked it smells like gas, and I could smell gas through the AC. No good. So I take it to a guy because I'm afraid my car is going to explode. He tells me that I have an E-VAP leak. Basically that means that the vacuum in the gas tank has a leak and yes, my car can explode at any given time.

Oh great.

So I take it in this morning at 7:30 in the freaking morning so that he can have it done by 11am so that I can go to work. I need a car for my job. It gets to be 11am and no phone call. I call him and he tells me that he just now put it up to look at it. I'm like WTF. I bring it in at the butt crack of dawn and you JUST NOW GOT TO IT??? Gr.... So I go get it and all today I'm praying that my car doesn't explode until I can take it back tomorrow AT 7:30AM. Boo.

Intrusive thoughts

Intrusive thoughts... get out of my head.
Intrusive thoughts...quit making me sick to my stomach.
Intrusive thoughts...quit ruining my day.
Intrusive thoughts...quit making me think badly of others.
Intrusive thoughts...quit making me sad.
Intrusive thoughts...quit ruminating in my mind.
Intrusive thoughts...quit being so powerful.
Intrusive thoughts...get out of my head.

Intrusive thoughts SUCK. Especially when there about what mine are about and you suffer from the mental disorders I suffer from and it makes you feel differently about a person or people until you can get rid of the thoughts or forget about the thoughts.

Lisa <3

Lisa is amazing. She is the first girl in a LONG while that has been able to tolerate me for more than a month. It's quite cute, every week she reminds me of how long we have been dating. And this week it's been 11 weeks. I asked her to be my girlfriend on her 20th birthday. I couldn't resist anymore to not be with her! She is perfect and I love her alot :)

My new job

Ok so I moved to Boise because Rexburg doesn't offer jobs that can keep financially secure. I was running out of money so I took a break from school and left to go to a city that actually offers jobs.

So I work for a place called "A New Leaf." It's a special program that gives therapy to children and sometimes adults who are developmentally challenged.

I work with an autistic boy, so I am considered a therapist. Finally! Lol j/k

He is incredibly cute. When I first met him, he was sitting at a table with a lost look on his face and I had to stop myself from tearing up because he was so adorable. I instantly loved him and knew I would love working with him.

I was incredibly nervous though. There are certain objectives that the center requires me to complete each day, such as tying his shoes, and blowing his nose, to more complex things such as how to deal emotionally with certain situations. I started my first real day on friday and we first played a game of "sorry" and then we did some exercises and went to the library. I thought I was somewhat successful as I completed 7 out of the 10 required objectives. Some are impossible to complete like blowing his nose... because he didn't have a runny nose that day.

So this week I have my full week with him. Hopefully it goes well.

I need to update more often!

Yay! I need to write more things! So here I am writing again on this blog thing! Oh how bizarre. I know that Kimi will be happy, but no one else will care. Oh well!

Skool

Geez school is tough. What with 400 level classes and all. I got a 68 on a test and I'm not happy about that at all.

School sucks.

I wish I could just go to the beaches of Hawaii and be a beach bum.

A little bit about me.

1. I've found out that its incredibly easy to make me happy. But its also easy for me to get discouraged and insecure.

2. People always make eye contact me no matter where I'm walking, driving, flying whatever, I always catch people looking at me. I feel like I'm on the Truman Show.

3. I don't think that bumbling blondes make the hottest women in the world. I like classy women.

4. I absolutely hate it when people speed through school zones. It's my ultimate pet-peeve.

5. I'm not an activist for anything. I usually get my ideas across through other people. I like to stay under the radar, but still make my point heard.

6. I am a very persuasive person.

7. I LOVE music. It's a new passion.

8. I will do almost anything and sacrifice almost anything for a girl that I fall for.

9. I can make just about anything happen. It's a hidden talent that I don't show often.

10. My ultimate dream is to open a club out of an old abandoned warehouse.

11. I cry easily.

12. I have a secret love for techno and chick flicks.

13. I have a really bad short term and long term memory. I can usually only remember something if it was emotional and can remember the emotions.

14. I am a thinker, not a talker. I am drawn to people who talk a lot.

15. I am not afraid of death or dying at all. In fact the only reason why I'm still alive is because I'm so afraid of pain and hate to be hurt.

16. I have a self-image complex.

17. I don't like things out of symmetry. I am a perfectionist.

18. I absolutely love dogs. I hate seeing dogs in crates waiting to be adopted. I wish I had the resources to adopt every dog I saw that needed a home and take them to a huge dog ranch.

19. I am extremely charitable, but I won't tell you how.

20. If I could have any special power, I'd want the gift of healing. When I see hurt people, my heart goes out to them. Especially the blind. If I could I would heal them.